Sooo. Today is probably the most important day possible in the life of a student. Results day! In two hours I need to go down to school to pick up the form that says if I graduated high school or not (so basically if the past year(s) have been worth it). I will be honest and say that for me the struggle was real. Especially the last few months and weeks have been absolutely draining, as I never studied so much in my life. And seeing a lot of friends and others posting their victorious ''graduated!'' pictures makes me even more nervous.

Basically for the last few days I feel like my heart is beating twice as fast as normal and I keep going over the idea of not passing my exams. I honestly have got no idea what the outcome will be, because my school grades were pretty good, but I feel like i totally messed up my exams. Graduating and just hearing that I did pass my exams will be the best news I could possibly receive, since I never recall being so stressed over something in my life. Especially because it was quite a struggle getting to where I am now and it took me a lot more time and a few unexpected turns along the way, I will be so happy if I do pass my exams. I feel like I can then really be proud of myself and finally move on with my life and actually do the things that I always wanted to do but because of school I didn't have the time for. I am planning on taking a gap year if I graduate, and I am a bit scared as well as super excited to start that. If I won't graduate: I have got no idea what I am going to do to be fair. But one thing that I am sure of, is that I will ball my eyes out (and I might even laugh a bit hysterically because of the nerves)  regardless of what news I will receive.

Soz if this is a bit short and messy but I really got to hurry if I still want to be there and not look like a naked mole rat.
Love, Sarah